I think it's so frustrating to be in a school where the instructors don't really teach you anything. All I do is learn from a book and participate in an online discussion and turn in assignments. There are no lectures or examples given. It really does make learning programming very difficult. I have to rely on youtube and some other coding sites to try to understand what I am doing and put it all into action. I am slowly getting it, but compared to some other people in my class, I feel really behind.

ON that note, there is literally only about a year left of school for me. Thank fucking buddha. I am almost done! I can't wait to graduate and just have the freaking degree. I already know I am going to have to do some other online learning to further develop my skills as a programmer after anyways.

Buddha, please shower me with money from the power ball lottery! I would love to win this lottery. I swear, I will help a friend get their helicopter ride to EDC, donate at least 5 million to the AIDS foundation of SF, and buy a house and car and settle in near my best friend. I will still work on being a programmer and creating apps. I would also get into investing. (Probably have experienced people do it for me) but invest in small amounts on my own for fun and practice.

I miss having a bf in a way. It was super lonely at first and from time to time, it would be nice just to come home to someone and hold or have dinner with. I know I've let myself go quite a bit since starting school. I really need to figure out how to balance my days better and get back into shape. ugh* story of my life.

Gotta wake up in 4 hours. so .... g'nite!